Hi, my name is Karlo, a genuine-born Filipino residing in my homeland, the Philippines. I am a normal guy who graduated at De La Salle Canlubang with a degree in computer science.
I don’t really know what to tell you, so I’m just going to contain every single thought swimming in my head right now and try to keep it organized in this little corner of the internet.
This is something that might explain a lot: I have ADHD. If you’ve noticed that my posts keep getting sidetracked absurdly fast - this is why. The few times I’ve told people this - they started to treat me differently, like I was someone defective or needing special care. When I realized they were treating me like a wounded bird started the time that kept it to myself instead. It never really caused me much grief, except for the few times in school that they abused my disability (which they know not of) for their own fun and amusement but still, it never really got in the way. I still have my strengths; I still have my weaknesses; the only thing different is that I’m just prone moving around and not staying in the same place for too long.
I’ve been fat since elementary school - I attribute this for my love for food and video games. People always tease others who are different from the socially accepted norm, so I did receive my fair share of taunts and tussles. I don’t blame them for it. No, in fact, I thank them all for it. Without those trials, I wouldn’t be able to be who I am and I wouldn’t have learned to accept myself. Sure, improvements can be made here and there, but overall, I value what I have now. It only gets better from here.
I’ve never had a single stable relationship in my life. I don’t really want to post most of it in the internet as proofreading it or editing it will cause me pain with each revision, but, all you need to know is this: I’ve dealt with most of the rainbow of relationship failure because of these women - be it death, cheating, regular breakups, one-night-stands, changing addresses, long distance, open relationships, the works. I wish it was me doing the hurting, but no. It’s usually me that gets the short end of that proverbial stick.
I’ve never had genuine friends before college. My schools usually are farther away from most people and as such, I couldn’t attend to every single social gathering that took place. This lead to me being slightly alienated. The other kids were having sleepovers and overnight parties, while I was alone in my bed, thinking of the good times I could be spending if I was at those parties instead. My friends never really cared to go to my place either, as I was mightily unpopular and geeky. College made it different. Sure, I still lived a great deal away from where the action is, but with college comes a little more freedom. I chose to go to every single party and every single event until I finally got the friends that I have been looking for. I’m pretty sure I’m blessed.
I don’t dislike dogs but I really am afraid of them. A dog mauled me once as a child and I almost died because of it. I still want a dog, though, and I plan on getting one soon. Time to get over that phobia.
I love RPGs. I really do. I like the idea of being able to escape into an alternate universe where you can be whatever you aren’t in real life. In RPGs, you can slay dragons, charm dames, drink ale all day, reach the farthest extents of the known universe and be respected for your achievements rather than who you are and what you look like. It’s a marvelous feeling being accepted. Finally.
I also love Pokemon. It fulfills three things that exist in my life: my OCD - I used to collect every single Pokemon that I could and give them funny names, just to be creative; my need for friends; and to have a link to my childhood and past - to be able to go back, contemplate and see how much better off things have become. I will never let go of Pokemon. Ever.
I don’t like keeping secrets. I like things nice and open. Secrets usually are made to protect someone from pain or suffering, but in my personal opinion, they just delay and intensify the problem. I would much rather you say that you don’t like me now, than drag me along for some wild goose chase that will still end up with me getting hurt. I like to tell things just like how they are.
I tend to trust people too easily. This level of optimism has cost me a lot of grief a lot of times, but it has also made my day in the same way. Being safe is fun and all, but I’d rather choose the riskier option and maybe get the chance to help someone desperately in need. Who knows, maybe someday, someone will help me despite of the odds.
I love comedy. It keeps me distracted from the things that are going on with my life. I try to make people laugh as much as I can even though I’m really bad at making jokes. Sometimes, it’s good to at least try.
I’m open-minded. I will never dismiss your idea on the spot, unless it is something that is truly against my principles or challenges what my life stands for. I will fight you to the death with arguments, but I will never attack you as a person.
I will try anything once as long as its something generally safe. Why would you decidedly close an opportunity that could potentially be awesome?
I like my music. The way I appreciate music is different, however. The music I like is based on my current mood and I listen to all genres of music, eclectic if you will. I listen to Katy Perry, I listen to Dream Theater. I listen to Lady Gaga, I listen to Mutemath. I listen to Ke$ha, I listen to Lamb of God. It’s all in how you view the music. It could mean something totally different from your perspective than to mine. We could agree to disagree with comes to music, but it still comes down to how one interprets the lyrics as messages.
I firmly believe in not judging a book by its cover. If you don’t give someone a chance to show off what they have, how would you ever get to know a person? Sometimes, it’s worth it to replace your “I think” with “I’ll listen”.
I’ll leave it up to here for now. I don’t think I’m done yet. Life is a continual learning experience and I’m going to try and soak up as much as I can.
Later days!
